Ranting? Not anymore!

One week has passed already, and I can honestly say that I’m “okay” now. Thanks to my friends - Jeng, Jester, Chuck, Mark, Mherv, Apple (Yes, You! : -) ),Trisha, Ate Ruth, and my mother who comforted me… and of course, the Holy Spirit who’s in me always, reminding me to walk in love and stop ranting).

Because of what happened last week, I decided to resign. At first, the main reason for this decision was my anger… Now, I just go on with my resignation to save some “respect’ for myself. At least this is better diba? Yes, I’m no longer part of the project that I soooooo wanted. God knows how serious I was with this project, and that I’ve been waiting for this. I think, that’s the hardest part! That’s the reason din siguro why I cried for almost a week.

But let’s move on, okay?

I believe that God, will once again turn my “mess” into His “message”. From now on, I will just do my part, and let God do the rest. I will no longer depend on any person. I won’t expect too much from anyone, because people can fail us.

Kaya after this, I don’t want to look for a new job agad. I will just take sidelines muna. I really need a break. If possible, I want to stay sa province, or basta sa magandang place and peaceful. I never had a vacation after graduating from college kase eh. Trabaho agad! Kaya ayun! Haaayyy… I’m also praying na matuloy ako magbakasyon next year sa Kuya ko sa Singapore. This will help me siguro to totally recover from all things that has happened…

I also wanna share with you an article of Joyce Meyer. Super sakto talaga para sakin. I pray that this will also bless you.

From Disappointment to Reappointment

Proverbs 13:12 says that “hope deferred makes the heart sick”. What is “hope deferred” I believe it is what we call disappointment.

We are all disappointed when things do not work out the way we want them to. We become disappointed when we have a plan that fails, a hope that does not materialize, or a goal that is not reached. We are disappointed by everything from a picnic that is rained out to the loss of a job. We are disappointed when the new watch we were given will not keep time correctly, or when the child we had hoped would turn out right shows no signs of doing so.

When things like that happen, for a certain period of time we experience a letdown – one that can lead to depression if it is not handled properly. That is when we have to make the decision to adapt and adjust, to take a new approach and just keep going despite our feelings. That is when we must remember that we have the Greater One residing within us, so that no matter what may happen to frustrate us, or how long it may take for our dreams and goals to become realities, we are not going to give up and quit just because of our emotions.

That is when we must remember what God once told me in just such a moment: “When you get disappointed, you can always make the decision to get reappointed!”

Disappointment often leads to discouragement, which is even more of a “downer.” We have all experienced the depressing feeling that comes after we have tried our very best to do something and either nothing happens or it all falls totally apart.

How disappointing and discouraging it is to see the things we love senselessly destroyed by others or, even worse, by our own neglect or failure. Regardless of how it may happen or who may be responsible, it is hard to go on when everything we have counted on falls down around us. That is when those of us who have the creative power of the Holy Spirit on the inside can get a new vision, new direction, and a new goal to help us overcome the frustrating, downward pull of disappointment. Hope deferred does makes the heart sick, but hope can be rekindled, and our hearts can be made whole again by the power of the Holy Spirit.