Today is October 2, and I’m still not feeling super excited for my birthday.Although we’ll be having a mini-celebration (with my officemates) at chuck’s place, I’m still a bit sad. I think the main reason was that I had a little misunderstanding with my special friends. I love them so much and they are very important to me. What happened last Sunday, was something that I’m really trying to avoid. I don’t want to be offended by them or vice versa. But by that time, I was not able to control my emotions.
Friends, if you’re reading this blog, I’m really sorry for reacting that way. I think that was also a mistake on my part. I was the one who gave you the “impression” na okay lang ako asar-asarin. : - (
That was okay, but of course, depending on the “subject”. I think I should change my image na nga and character as well. No more “isip-batang aiza”. I should be more serious and leave that impression to other people na “grown up person” na ako. But I gotta make sure that my “sense of humor” (kung meron nga) will still be evident.
And one thing I realized then, I should not be focusing on what people say or think about me. I should be “God-Pleaser” and not “men-pleaser”! I really hated the way I’m putting so much pressure in my life. I’m making things complicated, where in fact, my life can be just plain and simple. Thanks to Sir Jester who texted me a while ago, that I shouldn’t be hard on myself. I shouldn’t be overwhelmed by the project because no one is putting pressure on me, but ako lang talaga. So, I was the culprit. : - ) I should take this daw as “opportunity to learn” and not as “tedious work to finish”. Oo nga naman. Chillax, aiz! : - ) The problem is that I’m so troubled about what will happen the next day, especially for my projects. I don’t know if this is a sign of “obsessive-compulsive” syndrome, but this is really not good!I want to enjoy my projects, to learn from them, and not to end up losing my sanity! (well, exag lng yun ha! Di naman ganun talaga. Masyado ko lang kse sineseryoso ang mga bagay-bagay…)
From Joyce Meyer:
Let me encourage you today to get up every morning, love God, and do your best in every situation. He will do the rest! Remember that God is not surprised by your inabilities, imperfections, or faults. He has always known about those areas of your life, even if you are just now discovering them. Only God is perfect. He chose you anyway, and He loves you in spite of all your shortcomings!
… Again, chillax, aiz! All is well, by the Grace of God!
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