I just realized that I can never run away from God’s Calling…
There are issues in my life right now that I am trying to ignore. I am convincing myself that I’m okay. That everything is fine… I don’t have to be guilty of anything… That I am not hurting anyone…
But I still have no peace… It feels like something or someone is running after me… It seems like there are responsibilities that I have neglected…
I know I have become self-centered. I am so consumed by my dreams. My dreams have become my “idol”. I am so focused with those things that would bring me up to the corporate ladder. I am busy thinking, meditating, and doing things that will please those people surrounding me. I have been more concerned with what would people “think” or “say” about me… All this time, I was just thinking about becoming the “best”. I want my name to be known.
Two months ago, I was full of the Word and Faith. I always had the Word of God with me. I read it before starting to work and even before going to sleep at night. I had quality time with God and spent enough time to pray for other people.
But what happened? I’ve been easily swayed up! Pressures came in and here I am again, defenseless! Fears and Insecurities were slowly corrupting my mind. I was also distracted by those “people”. I wasted my time thinking about ‘em… Trying to be the best that I can be just to please ‘em. I wanted them to appreciate what I’ve been doing… In short, I wanna be the “center of attraction”.
But then again, God made me realized that without Him, I can do nothing. If I take Him out of the equation, everything else will be meaningless. It was like chasing after the wind. He reminded me that I should focus more on what He wants me to do… not on those selfish things that I wanna do... He is not against me having those good things in life. In fact, He wanted me to have the best in life! It’s just that I realized that I’m not doing anything for the ministry. There were so many excuses that I’ve been throwing just to escape from the responsibilities assigned to me…
But God is really good… so good that He’s still asking me to go back to the place where He has called me… He’s also telling me to go back to my First Love, Jesus…
Oh My!!! The Love of the Father is really unconditional…
There are issues in my life right now that I am trying to ignore. I am convincing myself that I’m okay. That everything is fine… I don’t have to be guilty of anything… That I am not hurting anyone…
But I still have no peace… It feels like something or someone is running after me… It seems like there are responsibilities that I have neglected…
I know I have become self-centered. I am so consumed by my dreams. My dreams have become my “idol”. I am so focused with those things that would bring me up to the corporate ladder. I am busy thinking, meditating, and doing things that will please those people surrounding me. I have been more concerned with what would people “think” or “say” about me… All this time, I was just thinking about becoming the “best”. I want my name to be known.
Two months ago, I was full of the Word and Faith. I always had the Word of God with me. I read it before starting to work and even before going to sleep at night. I had quality time with God and spent enough time to pray for other people.
But what happened? I’ve been easily swayed up! Pressures came in and here I am again, defenseless! Fears and Insecurities were slowly corrupting my mind. I was also distracted by those “people”. I wasted my time thinking about ‘em… Trying to be the best that I can be just to please ‘em. I wanted them to appreciate what I’ve been doing… In short, I wanna be the “center of attraction”.
But then again, God made me realized that without Him, I can do nothing. If I take Him out of the equation, everything else will be meaningless. It was like chasing after the wind. He reminded me that I should focus more on what He wants me to do… not on those selfish things that I wanna do... He is not against me having those good things in life. In fact, He wanted me to have the best in life! It’s just that I realized that I’m not doing anything for the ministry. There were so many excuses that I’ve been throwing just to escape from the responsibilities assigned to me…
But God is really good… so good that He’s still asking me to go back to the place where He has called me… He’s also telling me to go back to my First Love, Jesus…
Oh My!!! The Love of the Father is really unconditional…
2 comments:
Oh! What a wonderful conviction! I remember, I was convicted by Him and told to return to my first love before. Revelations 2:2-5
Now, God has totally changed me... and keeps on changing me everyday. Just continue to His Word. And don't mind to please other people... mind to please God.
"I don't know all the keys to success, but I know that one key to failure is trying to please others." Rick Warren, Purpose Driven Life
thank you yamii. just wanna ask kung ano pong name mo?
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